Dear Mom,

I went out and bought three big sunny yellow sunflowers for you. I put in in a blue vase. Blue and yellow color combination makes me feel happy. It is one of my favorite color combinations.

I'm not quite sure what my motivation is in starting this letter to you. It gives me a way to communicate with you even though it is just a one way communication. It would be good too if this becomes useful to anyone else suffering the loss of someone they love very much and didn't want to let go but had no choice especially another young girl missing her mom. Opening myself up in this way also reaffirms the fact that I am not afraid of your death anymore.

It has been fourteen years since my mom's sudden passing. This year I am not terribly sad nor is my heart heavy laden. I didn't even go out and buy a bouquet of flowers today, but maybe I still will in a bit. Instead I decided to start a blog in her honor to remember her. I want to remember that she once was and wonderfully at that. I want to remember that I was blessed with a loving and vivacious mom who provided a healthy and happy home for me to grow up in. That is a great testimony in these days. Thanks mom and I love you very much. Miss you...